Thursday, 2 January 2020

Just Pause // A Word for the Year...

As the children get older, I feel like life speeds up. I know when the girls were small, before the days of school runs and extra curricular activities, I used to feel like life was busy... now I look back on those days with a (probably slightly rose-tinted) sense of longing... my boys toddler years feel like they were lived in fast forward mode in comparison with the girls, and whereas it was much simpler to shut down shop in "the old days" of preschool, I feel much more pulled in multiple directions these days.

And so I'm finding the need to be more purposeful and thoughtful this time round, and proactively make space. And after listening to a fabulous message on training our children in how they should speak by the one and only Jen Wilkin yesterday, have grabbed hold of something she said with both hands as we head into the new year...

"You know how people choose a word for the year? I always secretly made fun of it a little bit... because people were always choosing words that were like, "blessing" or "adore" and no-ones was, like, "repent"! No one chooses "repent" for their word for the year! And a friend of mine said "you know what my word for this year is? It's hesitate..."
I am in! I am in on the word for the year! Hesitate!"

There are so many areas of my life where hesitating would be incredibly healthy right now!

Hesitating before I start that verbal diarrhea of attack when one of the children has pushed me over the edge
Hesitating before I dish out a consequence and thinking - is this something I am going to be able to follow through on?
Hesitating before making sweeping statements about what I'm capable of
Hesitating before committing to things that take me away from my family
Hesitating before I launch into criticism of someone
Hesitating before I triple book my days up
Hesitating before I start that new project at 10pm at night, and going to bed instead
Hesitating before I rush into a decision, and lay it before the Lord first

Just pause.

It isn't hard, and yet its so very, very difficult.

And I know, from experience, that its in the moment of hesitation that wisdom comes...

"A truly wise person uses few words"
Proverbs 17:27

"Know this, my beloved brothers, let every person be quick to hear, slow to speak, slow to become angry"
James 1:19

"Be still and know that I am God"
Psalm 46:10

And so I'm not going to fill this year with a list of resolutions that I probably won't manage to keep, and will only end up feeling a failure by... but instead, to try and preach this word to my heart.

Hesitate... be slow to act, slow to speak, slow to anger, slow to judgment...

Instead, be quick to listen, quick to pray, quick to forgive and quick to say sorry.

And yes, pausing and hesitating can look quite interesting when you're surrounded by a rabble of little people... its not the kind of pausing you see on Instagram, with hot cups of coffee and cosy blankets. It's the brutal self-discipline of holding your tongue when faced with a back-chatting child, its the counting to ten under your breath so you don't say something you regret. Its the writing things down to get your thoughts clear before entering that difficult conversation.

It's costly... and its awkward.

But its where real wisdom is to be found.

"The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom"
Proverbs 9:10

Fun-filled times over Christmas with second-cousins!

Friday, 27 December 2019

A Merry Little Christmas!

It's been a busy, but a merry, little Christmas... and though its been marked by a constant flow of people, somehow it has felt like a break as well, The usual routines are gone... there are later mornings (sort of... our boys are early risers... so by later mornings I mean we aren't rushing out of the house at half-past-eight!), slower starts, less "must-do's" and somehow I always find this time of year good for the soul. On so many levels...

Sunday, 15 September 2019

And Off He Goes... // Our Jonas Starts School!

I was sitting at the dining table this morning, laptop out, getting some work done, when my mind went wistfully again to this little space. I can't tell you how I miss it, and yet how the backlog of events and things to record feels slightly overwhelming. I need to write up birthday parties and holidays, back to school feasts and school starters... I know I don't need to record these things for other people, but over the years this spot has become my online diary, a place to display all my photographs and record the details... and while my favourite posts to write are the every day ones, I don't want to miss the big events either.

So I'll lay the parties and holidays to one side for now, and focus on this one instead...

My biggest boy started school!

Thursday, 22 August 2019

Dear Ava - You're Eight!

Dear Ava M,

The day you have long awaited has finally come - one of the challenges of being August born is all your friends hit the milestone long before you do! You are eight - EIGHT! Eight years since we became parents, eight years since we started this huge adventure of being Mama and Papa to you and all your little siblings. We are so thankful for you every day, and we truly do love being your Mama and Papa!

This year has felt like a milestone in so many ways... little steps of independence have begun and its fascinating and exciting to watch you adapt and change. Long gone is the little cheeky, smiley faced girl with golden ringlets and in her place and growing and maturing little lady with opinions and interests and a fun-loving, adventurous, loyal and trustworthy character.

Monday, 15 July 2019

A Busy Little Summer Season...

I ummed and aahed about what to title this post... I feel like every post has the same message at the moment - life's busy! But truly it is... the end of term bring's a whole new flurry of activity - class swaps, sports days, nursery graduations and end of year parties... it does at times feel a little like we're living in a whirlwind and there isn't an exit!

Sunday, 16 June 2019

Dear Jonas... you're 4!!!

Oh our Jonas!

What a joy and a delight you are! You are everybody's friend... easygoing and loyal with a definite cheeky streak... and now you are 4! Officially out of the toddler years and gearing up to start school. It seems like only yesterday I sat in that hospital bed as we introduced your sisters to their baby brother. You were the loveliest, most easygoing, chilled out baby, and now you are a truly lovely little boy to have around as well!

Wednesday, 8 May 2019

A Trip To the Chocolate Factory // Heidi's 6th Willy Wonka Party

I am SO late getting this post out, its embarrasing! It's over two months since Heidi turned six... but given that I've never failed yet to record a birthday party on this little space, I didn't want to start now!

This was SUCH a fun one, and I might have done a little giggle of delight when Heidi announced she wanted a "Willy Wonka" party!

Sooooooooooooooo much creative license!