Thursday, 25 April 2019

My little Narnians!

Since the new year we have been immersed - hook, line and sinker - in The Chronicles of Narnia by CS Lewis. I read the infamous "The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe" as a child, but the others have been uncharted territory for me and it has genuinely been an absolute feast!

Tuesday, 23 April 2019

Easter Breakfast and Growing Children...

Easter breakfast. Every year it verges on chaotic. Every year there's a lot of crazy excitement over the disbelief that they get to eat chocolate for breakfast. There'll be a spillage or two, jam on Sunday best shirts and the odd bicker... but amidst the reality of life with four small people, this little celebration remains one of the highlights of my year.

Sunday, 21 April 2019

Happy Easter // A Letter to my Readers...

I write what's on my heart tonight.

There are so many things I could write... about the beautiful walk we did yesterday, about the children's joy at our Easter breakfast this morning, about time spent with family.

But truth is, as I type there are tears rolling down my face because my heart is heavy with wanting to share with you what truly matters at Easter.

This day is at the heart of my faith. It is so much more than Easter bunnies and chocolate eggs, and I wish I could truly share with you how much this day signifies.

I don't know what you think about Jesus... who you think he was... what you think he did.

But given that its Easter, will you do one thing for me?

Will you read this letter to the end?

Here goes...

Monday, 15 April 2019

Dear Elias - You're two!

My little Li-Li!!


Two years ago, I was lying in an operating theatre, with a room full of people, after being rushed in to a "code red" with a lot of tense instructions being batted around over my head. It should have been one of the most anxious moments of my life, and yet somehow there was a peace, assurance and confidence that still is so precious to me to this day. The trauma we had been trying to avoid for the entirety of my second and third trimesters had just happened, and I found myself in a room full of medical professionals, who though calm, could not hide the concern written all over their faces, as they stuck me full of cannulas and needles and pumped me full of all sorts of necessary drugs.

Wednesday, 10 April 2019

Me and Mine in March

March. A month of birthdays and book days... of swimming lessons and school days... of playdates and playdough. Just the every day and the extraordinary mixed up in one big beautiful cacophony!

It is very much what life feels like these days. A thousand little simple moments, repetitive actions, commands, requests and decisions... all joining together to form the beautiful chaos of life as a Mama of four littles. It is relentless... I still have frequent moments of wondering whether how I'm responding to a particular issue or question or behaviour or attitude is right... plenty of self-doubt and a lot of prayer thrown in. And all too many moments where I know I didn't handle something well... where my own sin and selfishness get mixed up in the chaos. This mothering malarkey is no joke. But it is also the greatest privilege. Four little souls... each unique... each with their own little quirks and personalities and challenges... but each made in God's image and entrusted to our care.

Tuesday, 9 April 2019

Waving Goodbye to Winter: Our Little Loves

Oh my... it has literally been SOOOOOO long since I've done one of these, but I have missed recording the silly little details of our weeks... the little ordinary bits and bobs that together make each week have its own unique feel and memories. There is the day to day routine... the hooks we hang our week on, but really the vibrancy of life is made of the details surrounding those repeated responsibilities... the little spots of sunshine.

So here's what we got up to over the past four months...

Monday, 4 March 2019

Dear Heidi - You're Six!

Wowzers Heidi girl... how did this happen?!

Six has always felt to me like the age when your little people turn in to proper "children"... it feels strange to me to now be completely out of our baby girl days. This milestone of you turning 6 feels bittersweet. Bitter because I literally adored those little girl years and I'm sorry to wave them a very fond farewell, but so unbelievably sweet because you reaching 6 has come with so many other milestones that my heart quite literally aches with thankfulness. In so many ways I wish I could've caught a glimpse of you now, on those painful days leaning over your cot in the pediatric heart ward, wondering what life with a Kawasaki baby would look like... and yet I'm so thankful that I didn't, because in some strange way, that truly only God must understand, the uncertainty made us more deeply reliant on God, and also more deeply entwined with each other. This Kawasaki journey has been something we've always done together... and I am so thankful for the connection its brought us, the deep and meaningfuls its prompted and the eternal perspective its given you, which I think is pretty unusual for a six-year-old. There have been so many beautiful raindrops brought about by that huge cloud of darkness that hung over us for so long, and they have watered my soul in more ways than you could imagine.