It has been a heart-wrenching journey; a rollercoaster ride - moments of elation at good news quickly curbed by disappointments and more bad news. I would not wish this on my worst enemy. Still now, when I look down at our baby girl, there is a distant ache and that small voice which whispers "Why her...?"
And yet, through it all, our God has been so faithful. He has comforted us in the deepest pits, has drawn near in the moments of heartache. He knows what it is to lose a child. He's been there.
And we haven't lost her.
She's a little fighter, and in his goodness and mercy, God has spared our little girl's life and protected her when she was in the gravest danger a couple of weeks ago. We are so grateful.
And so, Sunday was twofold in purpose. We wanted to thank God for the gift of Heidi... that gift of life made all the more poignant by the near loss a few weeks ago... (but oh! It feels like a lifetime ago!) She is so very precious to us, and I can honestly say I cherish every day more as a result of this trial. I can rest assured that God is good and holds us in his almighty hands.
As well as being thankful, we wanted to commit ourselves to godly parenting. We made some promises... promises to do all we could to model Christ to her, to make the gospel attractive, to bring her up in a way that brings glory and honour to God. As I said here, the decision to become a christian is hers to make. It is not anything we can, or would, force upon her.
It was a beautiful day, and we had a great turnout... friends from our schooldays, colleagues, the NCT gang, church friends, family and people who have cared for us, loved us and supported us through this whole experience. We had a indoor picnic afterwards, and it was wonderful to have our amazing network of family and friends gathered around us...
Everyone brought a picnic, and we provided hot drinks and ice-cold cloudy lemonade...
and these little girls had a whale of a time...!
God is good and faithful. And you, our friends and family, are truly wonderful.
Thank you for loving us so well.
We are truly blessed.