Wednesday, 12 June 2013

One month since it all began...

One month ago, today, I sat out at the back of church trying to feed my baby girl. She kept crying and wouldn't stop...

"This is weird," I remarked to one of the other Mums, "she's normally so contented"

It was the start of a nightmare.

This past month has, without doubt, been the hardest month of my entire life. I don't think it would be exaggerating to say I've probably cried more tears this month than in the rest of my life put together. I've also prayed a lot more. And been a lot more grateful for the little things.

This blog has been so helpful for me in getting the jumble that has been in my head out. Thank you so much to all of you who have read your way through this journey with us... you cannot know how much every single comment has meant to us. It has been incredible to see how many people, from all over the world, have been praying for our little girl. More people than I could have dared imagine. Many of you have never met us, and yet have taken our little girl into your hearts. Thank you. Thank you for caring for us and ministering to us.

And so we continue on this long road. We don't know where it's heading, and at times it feels scary, having no map. I'd much rather follow the highway with its clear signs and streetlamps than this winding, untrodden road. But this is where God has called us. Our little family. And so we walk it, knowing that we never are, and never have been, alone.

THIS song has been the anthem of our souls this past month. Every single word rings true. He is faithful.

1 comment:

  1. Claire, I checked into your blog this evening for the first time in a while and am so lost for words at what your family and your precious little Heidi have been through.
    Your faith is inspiring and I trust and pray that God will continue to uphold you all.
    As a family, we will pray for little Heidi and for you, your husband and Ava.

    'There is a hope that burns within my heart,
    A consolation strong against despair,
    that when the world has plunged me in its deepest pit,
    I find the Saviour there;
    Through present sufferings, future fears,
    He whispers courage in my ear
    For I am safe in everlasting arms
    And He will lead me home.'

    Wilma, Keith, Elise & Kara x


I love reading your comments! Thanks for stopping by!