Wednesday 24 June 2015

Intense...

It's easy to forget the intensity of life with a newborn... However many times you've been there before, the constancy of a three hourly routine takes you by surprise. Tiredness can feel overwhelming, the feeding cycle never ending, and daily chores like cooking and cleaning an impossibility.

The first time you do it, you feel it most intensely... That terrifying realisation that you will never be your own person again... Your heart is now inextricably tied up to someone else's and the freedom of no responsibility is gone forever. These first few weeks can feel relentless, and terrifying and exhausting.


But with experience comes perspective. These first few weeks are not a phase to be resented, or hurried through. They hold their own special treasure.

And I think with each child, I've learned to enjoy these early days more and more.


The quiet of a feed while sunlight pours through the window

The softness of that brand new skin

That new baby scent

The tiny gulps of a newborn feeding

The deep depths of newborn eyes

Tiny fingers and tiny toes

The joy of watching older siblings delighting in "their baby"

Moments to reflect in the deep of the night

Of course, the reality is that these golden moments are surrounded by a thousand nappy changes, toddler tantrums, constantly jolting yourself awake and questioning yourself on everything... It's not all roses...

But it is unique, and special and precious. Never again will this little man be so utterly dependent on me as he is now. 

And I intend to savour every minute of it.



9 comments:

  1. Claire I loved reading this.. And really pray you really enjoy and remember the amazing moments.. My biggest regret is that I didn't enjoy the first few weeks and take it all in xx

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  2. I don't think I did with Ava either, Lyndsey ! I think your first is just such a shock to the system... You are too busy focussing on surviving to be able to enjoy it!

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  3. Ava was so cute earlie, 'oscar, do you want to see my baby? Come on then!' And oscar peaks adoringly in the pram ♡

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  4. Charlotte Whymark24 June 2015 at 22:29

    Sometime I miss those moments so much, especially knowing it's the last time it will happen! I love my memories of those moments xx

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  5. Love this post....😍😍 he looks like he is liking the outside world lol feeds on demand and an abundance of love.

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  6. Cherish every moment Hun. They grow up too quickly. I missed a whole month with Grace in hospital because she was 9 weeks early. Hope you find a little bit of time to yourself xx

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  7. You just brought back memories to all mothers with your description Claire - baby scent particularly. Savour every moment. x

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  8. This is just beautiful, Claire. I remember that time with my eldest and it was a whirlwind of panic. I enjoyed it but it felt very tense and stressful at the same time. With my littlest, I just went with it and it was a period of such contentment. The first six months after he was born felt like we were in hibernation and it was divine.

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  9. Aw enjoy every single minute with your beautiful boy Claire. x

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