Life has been rushing by at breakneck speed... I don't think I've had such a long break from my blog since I first started writing back in 2011. Life with four small children is incredibly busy and the break has been gutting but absolutely necessary. I've had to swallow my pride and recognize with an uncomfortable amount of realism that I can't juggle all the balls at once. I feel sad that this little space has been neglected - it has been such a source of joy and is a little treasure trove of memories for us, and I feel particularly bad for my younger children that their day to day has not been documented in the same detail that my elder children have been...
And then my sensible head kicks in and reminds me that my children would much rather have me - present and engaged and involved, than a stressed out Mama recording a tonne of memories that she was only ever present at behind a camera lens.
These years are so sweet... Hectic? Yes! Chaotic? Yes! Full of feelings of frustration and failure and a daily dose of grace and forgiveness? Yes! More than ever I feel aware of my own limitations - more than ever aware of how small this window of childhood is - more than ever aware of how swiftly the years fly by... and so aware that children are all unique and different, and learning to parent each one of them is a journey of constant adjusting and shifting, recognizing need and tweaking things, depending on the Lord in prayer and seeking his wisdom for each moment of parenting.
It's hard, its a daily battle, its beautiful and broken and humbling and full of joy and hilarity and tears and crazy levels of chaos.
But it is so unbelievably worth it.
"In every moment when you are parenting, you are being parented. In every moment when you are called to give grace, you are being given grace. In every moment when you are rescuing and protecting your children, you are being rescued and protected. In every moment when you feel alone, you are anything but alone, because he goes wherever you go."
- Paul David Tripp -
- Paul David Tripp -